Early Confusion
[Note: The following are some early thoughts from my journal in which some confusion popped up. However, by the end of my writing session solutions seemed in place. Enjoy!]
OK, then, moving on. Where are we? Where am I? How do I sustain interest and momentum? What am I missing? Where have I stepped off the path? Or am I just needing a bit of adjusting? There is some confusion on the path...is it truly me, by myself, or is the path WITH others? Do I need help and guidance and direction to stay the course, or do I have it innately within? Not sure. Just a little confused right now. I’ll try to find the correct questions. Do I need a little battery boost? Or possibly just need to move up a level? And if that is so, how do I do it? Am I too anxious? Probably. I want it and I want it now! Visions, clair- talents, and the rest, now (note: that made me smile, that I have the gall to expect this). And yet, why shouldn’t I? That is the struggle. I’m convinced that the battles we wage are within ourselves and that we can easily disrupt or sabotage our own growth by fear or ignorance. Sometimes those can be in our subconscious rather than in front of us.
I’m back to the topic of Spirit Guides and Angels. This seems to be of great interest and importance. I talk to them and ask for answers, but I believe they work in their own time frame and in their own way. Is it OK to ask for proof or validation? Others tell me that YES, you can ask, and I have, but either I am missing the connections or I simply am not getting any. Don’t know which. Hopefully by journaling about this I can continue to open doors and bring about the changes that I desire. Is doubt a deal killer? Does it stop you in your tracks? Not sure. But it seems like a catch-22 then. Without “faith” we may block “proof” and without “proof” we may not be able to muster “faith”? Yikes. Then I step back, drink more coffee and laugh. Does it even matter? It is what it is and nothing more, so belief and faith and proof don’t matter in a way because they will not change anything except our perception of what is “real”. Hmmm...must think about all of this.
[Further note: update. I did think about this and am now convinced that we create our own reality and IF we believe something is important it will be for us, but if we push it gently aside it will not resonate the same way. So, belief and faith are key to our reality, but we shouldn't get too hung up on the terms. Our Spirit will show us the way and guide us regardless of how much validity we put in words.]
[Note: The following are some early thoughts from my journal in which some confusion popped up. However, by the end of my writing session solutions seemed in place. Enjoy!]
OK, then, moving on. Where are we? Where am I? How do I sustain interest and momentum? What am I missing? Where have I stepped off the path? Or am I just needing a bit of adjusting? There is some confusion on the path...is it truly me, by myself, or is the path WITH others? Do I need help and guidance and direction to stay the course, or do I have it innately within? Not sure. Just a little confused right now. I’ll try to find the correct questions. Do I need a little battery boost? Or possibly just need to move up a level? And if that is so, how do I do it? Am I too anxious? Probably. I want it and I want it now! Visions, clair- talents, and the rest, now (note: that made me smile, that I have the gall to expect this). And yet, why shouldn’t I? That is the struggle. I’m convinced that the battles we wage are within ourselves and that we can easily disrupt or sabotage our own growth by fear or ignorance. Sometimes those can be in our subconscious rather than in front of us.
I’m back to the topic of Spirit Guides and Angels. This seems to be of great interest and importance. I talk to them and ask for answers, but I believe they work in their own time frame and in their own way. Is it OK to ask for proof or validation? Others tell me that YES, you can ask, and I have, but either I am missing the connections or I simply am not getting any. Don’t know which. Hopefully by journaling about this I can continue to open doors and bring about the changes that I desire. Is doubt a deal killer? Does it stop you in your tracks? Not sure. But it seems like a catch-22 then. Without “faith” we may block “proof” and without “proof” we may not be able to muster “faith”? Yikes. Then I step back, drink more coffee and laugh. Does it even matter? It is what it is and nothing more, so belief and faith and proof don’t matter in a way because they will not change anything except our perception of what is “real”. Hmmm...must think about all of this.
[Further note: update. I did think about this and am now convinced that we create our own reality and IF we believe something is important it will be for us, but if we push it gently aside it will not resonate the same way. So, belief and faith are key to our reality, but we shouldn't get too hung up on the terms. Our Spirit will show us the way and guide us regardless of how much validity we put in words.]
